acknaturallyy:

Wherever you are in the world, I hope your night is as breathtaking and beautiful as you, and you’re living a life you are passionately proud of. I want you to know that despite everything I have seen, everything that I’ve been through, everything that I’ve felt, and everything that I’ve done in my life; I’m becoming better for you. I’ve always promised myself that no matter what happened or where I found myself in this life, I would never stop believing I’d find you. Some days that feels like a promise I made to a different person because the person I was when I made it is someone I can barely remember anymore.

Tonight, I think about that same girl and can’t help in wanting to strive to become the best person I know I can; a girl you can be proud to call your own forever. I want to be the girl you show off to every person we pass in life and the girl who makes you happy to open your eyes each and every morning to take on this vast unknown world together. The thought of finding you someday has helped me get up each morning and face my day through not only my days of success but also through my days of defeat and failures. When I had to pick myself up and piece myself back together many times over, I did because I knew you’d be in that life someday.

Because of you, I get up each day with intention of wanting to make my life beautiful and share with the world that I’m whole and complete by myself because I made it to where I am on my own when nobody else was. In many ways, I am, because I fought to get out of a hole that felt as if I would never be able to climb to see the top of. I did that for me, but I know those broken parts of me I never thought would find their way back to each other were held together by the thought of you. 

My heart and my soul have taken me in many directions before you. I have felt and experienced life’s greatest treasures of love through following it and at times have experienced life’s greatest pain in heartbreak. It’s been through my pain that I’ve grown and realized my worthiness of love and how to love in a way that you are deserving of. I used to be so afraid of the future and meeting the deadline of milestones I was never going to make that I planned. But, you’ve unknowingly become my reason I’m okay with taking my time in growing and learning to love myself and this beautiful life I’ve been given.

You’ve encouraged me to push the extra mile to create my own happiness and succeed with my accomplishments in life at this very moment. So, maybe today isn’t our wedding day but I know I will find you when I’m least expecting to and marry you when our paths finally meet its moment of impact. Know this, things aren’t always going to be easy with us. We’re going to fight, but here is my promise to you that I will never let you go to bed knowing you’re upset with me. Even when I’m right, I’ll take my pride and set it aside knowing there is no one else in this world I’d want by my side than you. I will let you win, but truthfully, I will always win when it comes to loving you. 

So here is my promise to you in always being soft and cautious with your heart and soul, my promise to be patient when our lungs are filled with frustration and doubt, and my promise to be empathetic and listen when we don’t see eye to eye. Here is my promise to be kind and loving in allowing silence to fill the space between us instead of hurtful words we’ll regret, and my promise to always kiss you gently filling every beautiful part of you with nothing but sunshine and light. Here is my promise to be whatever you need and whatever you want of me. 

I have no idea how, or where, or when I will meet you but anytime I start to lose hope, I’ll remember I’m not only keeping this promise to myself, but also to you. I promise I’ll do everything I can to become someone who deserves you before I meet you so that one day when we reach our moment of impact, I’ll be exactly who you need me to be.